Sad songs

I like sad songs

I always have

It does not mean that I am a sad person

Just that I can empathize with the lyrics and emotions of the songs 

I typically write when I am sad or in a down mood

But I don't necessarily write sad things

I have written beautiful, positive things when I have felt at my lowest

I think it is because when we are down

We are more honest with ourselves, and

More in touch with our true emotions 

It is at those times that I just write what is in my heart

I write the words what are trying to escape from my fingers 

And I don't hold back or try to block any of it

I allow my heart and soul to take over

Maybe that means that when I am happy

Or content, as is my typical mood

That I am holding myself back 

Holding back my true emotions

Stifling my heart and soul

Why is that

Why do I, Why do we

Fear and stifle happiness and embrace sadness

Do I not feel worthy of this

Do I fear that opening myself to such positive feelings will leave me open to being hurt

I have never felt afraid to be happy

But deep down, do I fear it

I don't know

I like being happy

I don't consciously block happiness

This is not just a post of what I am thinking

It is a question for any who would read this

What do you think

What do you feel

2015.03.03

I may add to this later if I feel the urge

But please share you thoughts